Date: Monday, September 22, 2008
Time: 8:04 PM

why do you always want to hurt me? =[
you ALWAYS knew how much it hurts me.
but why are you still doing it?

you`re falling for her, i can see it.
and she also is falling for you.
good luck to the both of you.

i don`t regret that i met you.
it was my decision and my decisions are mine to choose.
it isn`t yours to take.

you know how much i wanted to take my life away when i feel like this.
i thought you knew me from the start. =[

okay. so i`m replaced to a ... uhh ... what should i call her?
i dunno. HER.
yeah. anyway. she is such a hyprocrite.
at least, i`m true.

but i`m still worried about you.
maybe it`s your first love all over again.
and i don`t want you to get hurt.
it kills, you know.

i don`t want you to be hurt
and so i`ll play the role of the best friend.
the caring best friend, who`d be there unexpectedly when you and HER are ... you know.

okay.

i`m ranting.
but of course, this is my blog, as you all know.
this blog serves as my alternative when i get tired from writing on my diary.
haha.

PRETEND is all i have to do.
there is no more effective way than to pretend.
even it hurts.
it`s the only way. =[

i have lied to every people i talked.
i`m not okay.
i`m not over him.
i`m not ready to forget him.

call me stupid.
but it`s my decision.
you can`t tell what i`m going to do.
because from now on, i`m not listening to other people`s rants about me.

i just want to be at peace.
free from all of these craziness.
from all of these pains.

it`s not that easy.
especially if you loved and still love that person very much.
call me stupid again.
i`ll punch you in the nose. 0have left cookies for me