about the escaper
Joseph Quek
1611.1992
I lived in States while it petty cold here. Well I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong, And where your love has always been enough for me. I'm not running from. No, I think you got me all wrong. I don't regret this life I chose for me. But these places and these faces are getting old, So I'm going home. Well I'm going home.

past escapes
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
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September 2008
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November 2008
December 2008
May 2009

soul mates
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tuesdaynight
*For the glow effect tutorial.
Date: Sunday, September 30, 2007
Time: 11:07 PM
not alone....

i'm not alone. says he. :)

haha.

good night everybody. sleep tight.


"gudnayt sweetie lab u."
-Anonymous. :)

&hearts &hearts &hearts
0have left cookies for me

Date:
Time: 7:35 PM
ouch!

AMFF..

The Ateneo Blue Eagles lost. damn it.

Okay. so the De La Salle Green Archers won. so what.

i'll support Ateneo all the way.

ATENEOOOOOOOO!!!!


heheheehehehe....


sorry sa mga rivals. mahigpit sa family ko pagdating sa ganyan. AHAHAHA.
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Date:
Time: 11:19 AM
burger steak yesterday!

oh mehn. haha.

one thing that would describe my day yesterday would be... SWEET. HAHA.

yeah. sweet.

the story goes like this...

one day. HAHA. joke. okay...

i got up early yesterday. my brother and i had to drive my mom all the way to Agoo... then we came back to our house here in Aringay. *yawn*. ate my breakfast.took a bath.changed my clothes.but before i went out, Danika called me and said she won't be coming. but what the heck, i'm still going.

first, my brother and i went to Curved (net shop) because he has to do his resume and need my usb flash drive.. then blOo texted me. asking if where was I. said the net shop and he said he'll be going there.

after a few minutes, he was there. we stayed outzside the shop for a few darn minutes because we didn't know where to go. then we went to school. we saw Jerome, Darwin, Ira and Irene there. I asked Irene if Loraine (our leader) is going. She told me she didn't know. so blOo and I went to another comp shop. Marseille. then Kranz/Lyn (ooh. HAHAHA) texted me if where was I(AGAIN?!). texted the name of the shop then after a few minutes, they were there.

we stayed there for an hour and a half. Lyn was the first one to go because she has to babysit her brother. then kranz went home and blOo and I went to Jollibee. where all KADAYAAN started.

i told him i'm not in the mood to eat. he pursued me and i gave up. i ordered a ONE PIECE burger steak and him? large fries. ONLY. i could've killed him you know. HAHA. peace. of course, it was MY treat. hmpft.

{AGAW EKSENA}
OIST BLOO. libre mo din ako next. HAHA

{end of agaw eksena}

we stayed there for an hour (???) because we were talking about life in general..we talked about the kids who were playing there and we talked about playing din. haha.

ayun. hmm,.. then we decided to go to school,...,,

tambay.... it was raining din pla. and we were soaked from all those things we've done. and because my umbrella is broken. damn it. haha.

because my best friend (RAIN!) is on my side, it's blowing down heavy rains. YIPEE! aylab my best friend! we're stranded. we went to the ICS study shed or something. haha.

we were reading ABNKKBSNPLAko?! by Bob Ong. despite the heavy rains, we were laughing still. haha.

then we went to THEEEEEREEE. haha. talked...

and then i think i said something and he wasn't talking to me. so i walked out.

walked in the rain...

i thought he's not gonna follow me. then he offered me his cap... i returned it. he opened my umbrella and i had no choice but to make a truce.

damn. i don't want to talk about it. because it was so darn sweet.


SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!!


aylab bloo. :)
0have left cookies for me

Date: Friday, September 28, 2007
Time: 8:35 PM
AYLAB TIWENTI-EYT!

aww. aylab dis tiwenti-eyt op september! haha! aww. yihee.

ang saya ng araw!

dahil closing program ng SLUC sportsfest, mostly ang mga teachers busy. tulad nanaman ng Biology at yung Research namin na 2 hours, wala! YIPEE! haha! 3 hours straight walang klase. whoopee.

and you know what? wala lang. aylab 28!

in those three hours na free time, ang ginawa ko lang eh...

umupo. haha.

habang ako ay INAAYUSAN ng bago kong HAIRSYTLIST na si karlo. HAHA. peace mehn. :)
chinese-style. nice one! AHAHAHA. joke. may free sounds pa pag sa kanya kayo magpapaayos. libre yung sa akin ah. alam mo namang close tayo. AHAHAHAHA. anong klase. woo. haha. :D

soundtrip. emo songs.punk rock. woo. ansaya.

muntikan na nga akong makatulog eh. kaso ang ingay ng mga classmates. grr. hehe.

ang saya kanina. binantayan ako ni labs. haha. ni blOo. tangna naman. ang saya nyang kasama ee. ano magagawa mo?! HAHA. sa maganda ngang kasama eh. paki mo ba. hmpft.

woo. badtrip nga lang. nag-soc stud nanaman kasi kami. BOOOORRRIIIING.

then english. tapos isang vacant period nanaman. kaso 3o minutes lang. badtrip naman kasi sila. hindi pa kami naka-review ng Envi ee. buti nalang may naalala pa ako dun sa mga pinag-aralan last week. pahamak talaga kayo oh. tsk.

then. tapos na ang class. dismissal. 3.3o. yun nga lang di pa ako pwedeng umalis because yung research namin hindi pa tapos. then yung mga research ng iba ako pa ang kukuha at magsasubmit kay ma'am. haays. 5 minutes before 5 na ako nung umalis KAMI ni blOo. okei lang.

then sinamahan nya ako sa palengke... andun kasi kuya ko eh. kasama gf nya. sabay daw kami uwi. bigla ba namang umulan. op korz. ang mga pasaway tulad namin ay hindi nagdadala ng payong! haha. basang-basa kaming dalawa.

natatakot ako baka kung ano nanamang kaartehan ang gawin ni kuya sa harap ni blOo. damn. ahaha.

pero ayun. tahimik siya. si blOo gustong sumama sa amin. wat the--. kaso ayun nga. mag-iinarte nanaman si kuya. ewan ko ba. nauna na si blOo. gusto ko nga syang isama eh.

nagtatampo ata. aww.

sowee na blOo. :)

si kuya nung pauwi na kami nang-aasar. hmpft. kabuset. haha.

blOo. aym soweeeee. haha.

uy. nagtext siya. amff. haha. mukhang di naman galit. haay.

come on guys. it's the TIWENTI-EYTH op september! it's a special day! woo.

let's have fun. AHAHA. what the hell.
okay. that's it.


i'm losing my mind. and you know why. HAHA.

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haha.

nytie!


x.silence.x
0have left cookies for me

Date: Monday, September 24, 2007
Time: 9:27 PM
OH MEHN?! haha.

ohh mehhnn...

badtrip ako bukas. peksman. mamatay man si batman. haays. :(

dalawa line of 7 ko. SO WHAT WHO CARES. phew.

please naman... damnation. haha.

pilit na magpakasaya. argh. :((

"you could take it all away... i don't need it.. coz underneath, i'll still be the same..."

waaah. :(( bumalik nanaman ang Ryan Cabrera fanatic side ko. haays. okay lang. ganda naman ee.

Ganda ng take the lead. idol si Antonio Banderas. haha.

wala lang. :|

dudnyt,
0have left cookies for me

Date: Sunday, September 23, 2007
Time: 4:57 PM
tagged by ate Leigh. :)

10 things i hate

Food:
err. i could say meat.really. i don't eat meat. haha! i'm not a carnivorous person yet i still am not a vegetarian. WHAT THE HECK AM I?!

Fruits:
Durian. Period.

Veggies:
err. almost everything. sabi sa inyo di ako vegetarian eh. :p

People:
mga nangingialam ng buhay. haters. epal. plastic!

Event/Situation/Incident:
Embarassing moment where everyone will point and laugh at you.

TV shows/movies:
yung mga soap operas..

Music:
dunno. i lab music naman ee.

Household chores:
SCRUBBING THE FLOOR. yan ang isa sa pinakamahirap gawin dito sa bahay.

Thing/s around the world:
Wars.

Thing/s about myself:
i hate the way i hate myself. :|

Tagging hu kaya?... my bro and anyone else. haha. :))
0have left cookies for me

Date:
Time: 2:14 PM
back from Baguio...

oh mehn. kagagaling lang namin nang Baguio... nakakabwisit nga nung friday eh. pero masaya na din...

Nakakabwisit kasi inaasar ako ng Papa ko... bakit daw di ko tinanong sa kanya kung pwede ako pumunta. Heller... Sinabi ko pa kaya... Eto dialouge namin..

One evening at our dining room:
Me: Sana makapunta ako sa Milo sa Friday...
Daddy: Sige sali ka... Saan ba gaganapin?
Me: Sa Lingayen.
Daddy: Ha?! Wag ka na sumama. Ang layo nun...


Ano ba yan?! waaah. pero okay lang siguro... Nakakabanas din yung nangyari kahapon... Pumunta kami ni kuya sa SM Baguio. 1o.3o am yun... Then... ikot ikot lang.

We're a bit broke lately... Kaya window shopping lang. Nag-pishbol and skwidbol kami ni bradder sa Kiss. Then bumili ng coke in can sa dept.store. Yung parents namin nasa La Trinidad for a house blessing or something. Nag-lunch kami together with my brother's gf sa KFC.

Pagkatapos kumain, nagtext si Daddy na nsa SM na daw sila. Pero bago kami pumunta sa kanila, sinamahan pa namin yung gf ni kuya sa bus terminal. Uuwi na kasi siya dito sa La Union. Then... umuulan nun. Lakas. Basang-basa na yung pants ko. daaaamnn...

Nung nagkita kami nina Mama and Daddy, hiwalay kami. Nanuod ang boys then kami ni Mama nag-ikot... AGAIN...

Ang daming cute na shirts and jackets...

Well... almost lahat ng nagustuhan ko is color BLACK. I'm trying to avoid pink. Because some of you know that i super hate pink.

Black Tribal jacket... Black shirts from Crissa, Jag... Red and Green jackets from Polo Sport. damn! Next month daw kami babalik... Kasi sweldo nila next month. WAHAHAAHA.

Sana meron pa din yung mga yun. haays!!!

Kakakain ko lang din. Sinigang na bangus. haha. wala lang.

anyway...
yun lang siguro. walang maisip isulat.

Gagawin ko pa pala yung math.

damn
0have left cookies for me

Date: Thursday, September 20, 2007
Time: 10:06 PM
amff...

haays!!! Milo na bukas! And i'm not part of it. haha. buti pa SIYA. makakasama pa niya yung ano... sina ano... HAHA... anyways.

Okay lang yun... Ingat nalang sa kanila. and good luck.

Sana magtext din sila.. lalo na SIYA. haha. :))

Oh mehn. Hindi ako mapakali... Lagi ko nalang tinitignan yung cellphone ko. hoping to see if may text siya. Yun nga lang wala... Because!!!


A watched phone never goes off.

haays. sana naman meron. amff naman. haha. napaka-dramatic ko sa mga nakalipas na days. kung alam nyo lang mga tao. hays. you don't want to live the life i live. haha. ok ba? tsk tsk!!!

malakas na din siguro ang tama ko... buhay nga naman...

yun nga lang muna. baka mamaya maiyak pa ako dito.
0have left cookies for me

Date: Monday, September 17, 2007
Time: 9:32 PM
stolen kiss? amff.

ahaha. nothing special... i'm just... happy.

For YOU: don't tell me you're not happy, because even if you tried to hide that laughter, you can't force it. haha. i see the sides of your mouth curled to a smile. HAHA.

Sound tripping. Angel of Mine by Monica. Awww.. I love this song..

"How you changed my world you'll never know,
I'm different now,
You helped me grow..."


I'm inspired by this song and others. haha. If only he would understand me... If only he would just believe me.. aww..

hehe...

sarap ng paksiw. haha. bangus ee. sarap ng tiyan!! ahaha!! naparami ata ako ng kinain ah. hmm...

anyways. takas lang to mga tol. hahaa.

Misery business na..

OH MEHN.

MILO NA SA FRIDAY!!!
Hindi ako sumali. :(( ang tanga ko kasi eh. Sayang sayang sayang. awww... :(

basta. next month, Univ Meet naman. At least dun, kasama ako. hay nakow powh.

I MISS WATCHING BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER! awww. I hope I can find some CDs. Damn. I'm addicted. because of spike. i think he's so hot. haha. even though he's old now.. I love him in the Buffy series. woo. hotness. AHAHAHA.


anywayness(haha), gots to goes. :)
0have left cookies for me

Date: Sunday, September 16, 2007
Time: 12:45 PM
wooh. :))

gutom pa ako. haha. :) kaka-snack ko palang even though it's 11.46 am na. haha.dapat it's lunch na eh. saws. hmmm...,,

the weather's hot. damn.

oh. i created a new account at TeenTalk. Visit my thread there. Click on the links. Thanks.

I'm also thinking about making ANOTHER story at Creative Corner. But I cannot think of a plot or something. But you better watch out for it.


"DO WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT, IN THAT CASE, YOU KNOW YOU'RE STILL HUMAN..."
0have left cookies for me

Date: Saturday, September 15, 2007
Time: 3:20 PM
Surveys

oh my god. it is so boring today!!!

Surveys from friends on friendster. :)

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From Chef Yael :)
ALL YOU GIRLS.. ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
1.Do you burp in front of guys?
- minsan. :)

2. Do you straighten yourhair?
- no.

3. Whats your favorite girl magazine?
- ** candyyy

4. Did you everspend all day/night
getting pretty for a guy?
- ** nope. :)

5. Did you ever cry during romantic
movie?
- ** yeah

Would you leave the housewithout
makeup on?
- ** yap!! :)

7. Do you consider making
out "unladylike"?
- ** woo?

8.On the scale of 1-10 how fun is
shopping?
- ** 5? haha. :)

9. Do you think lipgloss is the best?
- ** lip balm. :)

10. Do you freak outif you miss your
favorite show?
- ** not really.

11. How long does it take you to get
ready in the morning?
- ** 1 hour or less.

12. Do you like soccerboys?
- YAH.haha. :D

13. Is pink the best color in the
world?
- ** nope. ICKIEST color. bleech.

14. Have you ever dressed
unlike yourself to impress a guy?
- ** nope.

15. Do you often wishthere was
something you could changeabout
yourself ?
- ** yap.

16. Do you dress up too much for
holidays?
-** sumtyms.

17do you like to wear dresses?
- ** nope.

18. Do you write a lot of mushy love
poems?
- ** i write DARK poems.

19. On a scale 1-10 how much do guys
confuse you?
- ** 6

20. In the past 24 hours have you
hungout with a guy?
- ** yeah.

21. Are shoes your weakness?
- ** nope.

22. Is chocolate your best friend?
- ** nope.

23.Do you like to paint your nails? -
** no.

24. on a scale of 1-10 how many times
do you look in the mirror a day?
- ** 1.

25. Are your nails long and pretty? -
** no.

26. How often do you wear high heels? -
** never.

27.Would you rather go to a sports
eventor go shopping?
- ** depends.

28. Would you rather go to a rock
concert or prepare yourselffor a party?
- ** rock concert definitely!!! :D

29. Would you rather listen tomusic or
dance to music?
- ** listen. :)

From Ate Alea
1) who sits next to you?
from the back?
Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer

2) who's in front of you?
Loraine.

3) who's on your left?
Vaniele.

4) who's on you right?
Franz.

5) who are your best friends with in
the class?
no one. :)

6) who's the sporting girl in your
class?
dame. :)

7) who's the sporting guy/s in your
class?
dami naman ee.:)

WHO'S THE...
8) most shy?
aynakow.dami nila!!

9) cutest guy?
wala. :)

10) cutest girl?
ehem.


11) prettiest?
oh mehnn..

12) most annoying?
rhusty? :/

13)funniest?
dami. haha

14)your favorite teahcer?
ehem..

15)favorite subject?
English!!! haha!

16) who's your class president?how's
she/he?
ako. haha. so far i'm BAD. :p

17) who's the vice president?how's she/
he?
wala ehh.

18) your class is?
so damn full of crap.

19) do you love your class?why?
no.

20) do you have a crush on someone in
your class?
watta question. *rolls eyes*

21) if you were in some other class.
which will you pick?
any. just as long i won't have to spend my time with my current classmates. sheesh.

From Ate Margareth
1. names in your inbox cellphone?
- ...

2. your main ringtone?
- dunno.

3. what u did at 12 last night?
- dunno.

4. who was the last person u went out
with? where?
- ...

5. the color of the t-shirt you're
wearing now?
-err. some kind of orange and brown.

6. the last thing u did ?
- breathe.

7. 3 of your everyday favorite items ?
- phone, bed, and the laptop.

8. the color of your bedroom?
- BLUE!!! haha!!!

9. how much money in your wallet now?
-240? haha

10. How's life?
- damn ruined.

11.your favorite city?
- ...

12. what will you do next weekend?
- dunno for sure.

13. when was the last time u saw your
mom?
- at lunch.

14. where is she now..?
- bedroom/

15. When did the last time you talked
to your parents?
- lunch.

16. who is the last person that texted
you ?
-ate regine.

17. where did u have your dinner last
night?
- home.

18. the last surprise u've got?
- nothing.

19. last thing u borrowed from your
friend?
- err.

20. What do you feel now?
- sleepy.

21. What do you order at McDo?
- fries. and float!

22. The last time u feel so sad?
- all the time. :(

23. What is your wish for tomorrow?
- peaceful day.

From ChiChi
001. Real name: Abigail
002. Nickname: abby
003. Married: nope.
004. Zodiac sign: taurus.
005. Male or female: female.
006. Elementary: amlchsi. (sheesh.)
007. Highschool: dmmmsu-sluc
008. College: --
010. Hair color: black.
011. Long or short: long.
015. Are you a health freak: No.
016. Height: dunno.
017. Do you have a crush on someone?:
yeah
018. Do you like yourself: not really.
019. Piercings: 2..
020. Tattoos: none.
021. Righty or lefty: rightY!. (:

FIRSTS :

022. First surgery: none.
023. First piercing: ears.
024. First best friend: err/dunno.
025. First award: ahm...
026. First sport you joined:badminton.
027. First pet: cat.
028. First vacation: baguio.
029. First concert: dunno.
030. First crush: si unggoy. :|

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating: my words.
050. Drinking: nothing,
052. I'm about to: cut myself. :|
053. Listening to: the sounds from the TV

YOUR FUTURE :

058. Want kids: in the future!!!
059. Want to get married:okie lang.
060. Careers in mind: writer. comp admin.

WHICH IS BETTER? :

068. Lips or eyes? eyes.
069. Hugs or kisses: HAG!! haha!! :D
070. Shorter or taller: depends.
072. Romantic or
spontaneous: kinda both.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: both.
074. Sensitive or loud: both!! haha
075. Hook-up or relationship:
relationship.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant:
a little bit of both.

HAVE YOU EVER :

078. Kissed a stranger: nope.
079. Drank bubbles: no.
080. Lost glasses/contacts: nope.
081. Ran away from home: i have thought about that,
082. Liked someone younger: err...hmm.. no.
083. Older: YEAH.
084. Broken somone's heart: dunno. paki ko?!
085. Been arrested: no.
086. Turned someone down: err..hmmm
087. Cried when someone died: erm...,,
088. Liked a friend: no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself: i'm still practicing in doing that.
090. Miracles: sometimes.
091. Love at first: nope.
092. Heaven: yeah.
093. Santa claus: no.
094. Sex on the first date: watda?!
096. Angels: yea.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to
be with you right now?
: yep.

098. Had more than one
boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?
: neveeeeeeeeeeeeeer!!!

099. Do you believe in God?
: yap. :)

From Quelpot Jenyoos
1. name?
Abigail. :)

2. kelan birthday mo?
May 18, 1994

3. favorite subject?
Inggles. :))

4. wat r u doing ryt now?
watching. :)

5. name ng crush?
c... :)

6. last text msg received?
ate regine - Loe.. :p

7. wat r u wearing ryt now?
wala.

8. magkano nasa wallet mo?
240? :))

9. nasan ka kahapon between 6 pm to 7
pm?
BAHAY!!! haha!!

10. last gift received? kanino galing?
weeh. antagal na nun. :(

11. kapuso o kapamilya?
kafams. :)) haha

12. ano iniinom mo ngayon?
wala po.

13. anong cellphone number?
0926... HAHA!!! :)

14. sino kasama mo ngayon sa bahay?
familee.

15. laman ng bulsa mo ngayon?
pics and money.

16. paboritong tv show/s?
damiii!!!

17. love mo nanay mo?
yeah... :p

18. eh tatay mo?
yeah.

19. san ka pumupunta kapag saturday?
depende.

20. describe your crush in three words?
adik. haha. hmmm... sweet. makuleet. HAHA!!!!

21. kikiam o tokneneng?
kikiam!!

22. green o violet?
ewan.

23. Tagaytay o Batangas?
Tagaytay!

24. PSP o iPod?
PSP. :)

25. jazz o classical?
WALA!!! :)

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tama na muna. sakit na ng mata ko. haha!:))
0have left cookies for me

Date: Friday, September 14, 2007
Time: 8:45 PM
it's never gonna be alright...

after what happened this morning, nothing's gonna be the same...,, If you thought it had done something good to us, you're not thinking right. It made us more bitter than ever...

Think positive, as they say... But don't just settle for that positive... because every thing has a downside of it...,,

Do you think you're right? How come you're always right? Don't you commit mistakes? If you don't, we shall all bow down before you because you're now the Highest Being in the world. If you don't have any mistakes, why, you are oh-so perfect we could all kneel down and kiss your shoes.

All that rumors about me? I threw them out in the trash... I didn't really think about it... Why would I think such nonsense? Damn you all. I know I know.. I committed a mistake..., But what do you care? You're not me. You'll never be me...

Because you won't understand how my mind works... Hell, I don't even know myself. But I know no one could think what I'm thinking. You think you're higher than them? Shut the fuck up.

Once, I did that...(elementary years...)It made me no good. I tried to be normal like anyone... I felt better... But here in HS, I tried to be alone... and it felt perfectly.

Some of you couldn't even stand being alone... Becase you are afraid... You want to have someone to stand up to you...But there will be a time when you will be alone...

It's never gonna be alright... This world is made up of problems we can't usually face. It is made up of different people with different insights...

Now tell me... Can you change the whole world? Ask them in different languages to make a difference?

And also... Can you please just PLEASE FIX YOUR LIFE FIRST BEFORE YOU DESTROY OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES?!

you ruined mine. BIG TIME. And I'm not very happy... You know why? We have been talking about UNITY...But where did our main topic go? DAMN YOU PEOPLE WHO TOOK THIS UP... I hope you find Hell and edifying experience. YES. I'M THIS BAD.

If I asked you what would you do if you're in my shoes... I expect you'll be saying... 'I'm never gonna do what you did. I'm going to think...'...

okay... Let me tell you what I think...,,

I expect many people would tell that line BUT what if you're think the same lines like me? You're also going to commit that mistake... And you'll be hurt SO BAD. okay?! You're not thinking how other people will feel... What if they don't want to talk about it? You can't persuade them to do it.

Leave them alone... Let them think... Let them be what they want to be... Don't interfere with their lives... You're not their parent. DUH.

Don't act as though you're the superior one and the others are just your minions... Don't act tough. Because no one is tough...,, If we are tough we won't be able to live this drastic world. We won't have any problems...

We all have our downside personalities... I don't admire people easily. You'll never know...

NEXT TIME....

WOULD YOU JUST PLEASE SHUT UP?! It will never gonna be alright even if you try hard to fix things...

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0have left cookies for me

Date: Thursday, September 13, 2007
Time: 10:15 PM
how come...

how come they're all like that?

How come those people see what it's like being in my world? How come they only want to see what is in there place?

Can't they see I'm hurting?

I once read in a book... (Madison Finn)... they were writing a composition... which is about how you write something that is from another person's point of view...if our English teacher does that and he assigns it to one of the bitchy girls...,, would they see what i'm seeing? Would they feel what I'm feeling?

do they always think about their own?
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Date:
Time: 9:58 PM
MURDER

ADVANCE NOTICE: This is an original poem made by me...,, sorry if it's dark. I wrote this poem because I cannot take anymore the things the bitchy girls do to me... here it is..

Murder

I've committed a murder
And it's the best one I've ever done.
I used a single knife,
But managed to kill their lot.

Their blood falling down,
Still with the frightened look in their eyes.
I love to see them hopeless...
They won't ever bug me again...

This murder I've done,
I don't regret it.
They made my life a living hell,
And so these murders, they deserve.

Murder is what they've got,
When they don't know when to stop.
I may not look like a murderer,
But it's not all in the outside.

All these times I've been silent,
All these times I've been tortured...
I'll murder them if they won't stop,
So better keep their mouth shut tight...


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ayan....,, i made this poem when i was SO LEFT OUT.

they can see me alone... why didn't they made a conversation with me? it was dark... and quiet that time...DAMN THOSE GIRLS.

haays. please tell me something about this poem...
NEGATIVE OR POSITIVE, I'LL ACCEPT..
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Date:
Time: 8:30 PM
DEPRESSED!!!!

OH MEHN!!!

i won't be able to watch KOSKEE TOMORROW!!! damnation overruling my world!! HAHA!!

i'm very jealous of my brother... he's gonna watch... awwww. DAAAAAMMMNNN,....

i'm so damn depressed... please comfort me. haha!! :)

anyway...

i don't know. i just can't think of something right now...

all i can think is that i'm losing my mind. :)

that's it,...
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Date: Sunday, September 9, 2007
Time: 4:41 PM
alone.

spending my time alone lately. haays. my head is aching again from the heat.

alone alone. everyday i'm feeling much worse. everday when i wake up, i cry because i know that the upcoming day will be spent by me alone. alone. haays.

other people would be walking down the streets, laughing with their oh-so-cool friends why yours truly would just be hanging out in one place or would conversate with people who are not busy.

it hurts my eyes seeing them happy while i plasters a fake smile just to let people know that i'm okay even though i'm not.

so i'm a faker. but a good faker that is. i'm not faking anything seriously. just that i'm faking my own happiness.

if i imagine me being with others, it will just be a blur. when i push that thought, all i could see is me staring at the cliques of boys and girls having a great time.

i'm in the mood of writing down my feelings now... and i'm in the mood of eating pringles. haha. :))

why is it so damn hot today?..

i almost forgot it's monday tomorrow. awww...,, classes are back.

and I.WILL.JUST.BE.ON.MY.OWN.AGAIN.

i know things will not improve tomorrow. the plastics are surrounding me again.

I HATE THEM.
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Date: Saturday, September 8, 2007
Time: 10:04 PM
voices of the youth...

why did i think of this subject? i was inspired by the book, Young Blood, which my classmate recommended. And hell was he right.

The voices of the youth of past years were expressed. How each and every youngsters look life in their own perspectives. I idolized them for being true to their being. Taking risks even though some could hit someone too much.

But how can we blame them? We live our own life. We have the freedom to tell what's on our mind. Though we should know our limits in these kinds of things.

These people, they share experiences or their ideas about something. Negative or positive, they want to share these things.

For many times, people say that sometimes, teenagers are so immoral, mischievous and naughty that all we do is making trouble out of nowhere.

They say, teenager is the most critical stage in life. I will have to agree into this.

Only because, teenagers are starting to have their mind on their own... Okay. Not all teenagers are like that. But MOSTLY they are. To make it clear, let's leave the KIDS who doesn't care about what's happening in their lives.

LET US LEAVE THOSE GODDAMN PEOPLE WHO FEELS LIKE AN ADULT BUT NEVER REALIZES THAT THEY ARE JUST A KID TRYING TO ACT A BRAVE FRONT

there... so here we are...

Youth.

ADULTS... please listen to the voices of the youth who just want all of you to understand how life now is different from yours back then.

Listen to the voices and screams because we need you to understand how we want to end this misunderstanding by making you feel what the youth feels.

so okay. maybe some of us are trying to act a brave front because some of us are too coward to show their emotions to other people. Too scared that people will call them crybabies or something equally like that.

but then... how can we face life if people will tell you you're not worthy?
How can we face life when people discriminates the youth?

Is it our fault we don't have enough knowledge to lead some group?

Why do adults always base intelligence from what we learn?

The youth learns from the everyday doings of life, from the mistakes we've all done..
All the things we learn from school is just some little addition to our knowledge. But those scientific calculations and others cannot control our WHOLE life...

I cannot deny that we can apply those things in the future, but that isn't enough...
Disciplining of the teachers is not enough to make our life straight. We also need the love of our parents, but sometimes parents still cannot understand, because they think that us, youth, would be better images if we follow their own rules when they were in childhood...

What? We were to follow their tight rules? i don't think i cannot survive...

so here am i. blabbing about youth...

YOUTH!!!!

LET'S HEAR IT FROM THE YOUTH!!!

:D

-silence
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Date: Sunday, September 2, 2007
Time: 3:29 PM
temporarily banned. :((

i'm temporarily banned from the comp. awww. i did something wrong kasi. aww. this is my punishment. one month banned aku. anyway... i do hope they would forgive me.

i'd tell everything that i want right now. because i won't be able to use this comp for a loooooong time again.... damn,...

so i'm sick today. because yesterday.. was such a FREAKING GOOD TIME. haha!!!

so i went to Agoo, to meet my classmates for our practice in PE.my brother and i came early because we have to meet his gf there... After we fetched his gf, we went to the church. because beside the church is where you wait for the bus trip to Baguio. and my groupmates said that we would meet in the church. so we waited.

the designated time was 9.3o am.,, but my classmates still weren't there because i don't know. ahha. we waited... and waited...

but then, somebody called me. it was Lyn. so i went with her and went there. HA.

anyway. we were walking and walking until it rained. then Kranz, Karlo, Lyn and I went to Sadia Net.

HAHA. i don't want to talk about the things that happened later that afternoon.

but i think it was DAMN GREAT.

oh MEHN!!!


haha

labyoue. :)

abi.xoxo.
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