Date: Sunday, February 3, 2008
Time: 6:11 PM

i'm not the same anymore. i've completely changed. oh. wrong. i didn't change. i just went back to my old self. :|

but i deduct the slashing and the cutting because it is banned in my life now. haha..

the status of me and my enemy : he said sorry. i didn't care. i don't care. after all he said to me and my school? nah-uh. no chance of making up. sorry, dude. no chance. i'm not that kind of person. you hurt me so much. :[

for my <3 : even if you're mad at me. haha. labyoo. hope you can still forgive me. he didn't really texted me. he just missent it to me. i'm sorry you have to deal with this. i didn't know. i promise i'll pay you back. don't worry. i'm still gonna be here.

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i hate it when i'm losing myself. [damn disorder!] i'm always freaked out. like, right now. i feel it up creeping. i'm beginning to get nervous and shaky. oh no no. i can't bear it.

my disorder is becoming stronger and stronger than ever. i may give up easily. and i may have to die sooner than anyone may think.

[listening to Last Look by Chicosci]

he's the only one who can help me survive in these challenges. i DO hope he will forgive me. and forget the things that had happened. but i think, there's no chance. :'[

*wish.wish.wish*

i hope everything will be back to normal before the 14th. it's HARD being alone in the 14th, ya know? it's hard to get jealous with everybody who has their own lovebirds.

[listening to Half Alive by Secondhand Serenade]


"i'm almost alive and i need you to try and save me."

haay. i'm über nervous right now, really.

I REALLY HOPE ALL PEOPLE CAN GO BACK TO NORMAL.

i love the way it used to be. :[ 0have left cookies for me