Date: Thursday, December 27, 2007
Time: 2:01 AM

I'm still up.

It's already one a.m. I can't sleep. Been thinking of HiM. i'm having a nervous breakdown here right now...

[ayaw pa kasing magparamDAMN eh.]

eeeeee. i'm so freaking out. no joke. i'm hyperventilating here. no one's awake. and no one will understand if i tell them. argh.

i thought i was going to sleep early. but then THAT thing entered my mind and i simply cannot sleep. and i think i will never sleep. argh. help me take it off my mind...

...but then i won't do that because he's mine and i need to take care of him. like what i did for her mom today.

i'm having a BIG responsibility in here. at least, i think so. he may never see it like this, but it's my idea and thought. god. help him in this situation. it's hard to see him having these mad ideas that involves killing for the sake of revenge.

i tried to stop him. but no. he's hard-headed and won't even listen to me.

[i'm telling you. i'm gonna smack your face if you do it. so don't.]

i know it hurts him about what happened with his uncle who he likes to think his brother. well, i know his life. :/

i know i shouldn't mind this because it's none of my business... but then, i don't want to lose him, do I?

NO. NO. NO.

cannot.


help me make my day calm.

thank you.

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