Date: Saturday, November 24, 2007
Time: 2:46 AM

i don't know what to say. what to do. what to think.

it's hard to think of words when you're crying...

it breaks my heart just thinking what am I gonna do, when everyone will turn their backs on me and unite to hold me down below where i belong.

but the real question is... Where do I belong?

I don't belong here... here at our own house. I don't belong in school, since they all hate me and despise me.

In short, I don't belong anywhere.

No matter how hard I try to fit in, I can't do it... I'm so different from all those people I've been trying to be friends with. We don't share the same interests and we never really agreed in any topic.

People don't like me...Why? I don't know.

I'm just sitting in the corner quietly, trying to find my lost self in every place but it feels like I am lost again...

God knows how I think. How I see my life. How I feel...and God knows how much it hurts being me.

I'm sure something good will coming in my way...But I also know it won't be soon enough.

So I'm hoping I could still stand up for myself. Trying to say it's all right...Even if nothing is going right.

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Life at Home :

my mother is having her DAILY mood swing again...

my father is being strict as always...

my brother is downstairs...

argh. 0have left cookies for me