Date: Friday, December 5, 2008
Time: 8:27 PM

i always pretend that it`s not hurting me. but the truth is, it does and it gets badly every day.

i really hate him. but why do i have this feeling that i still love him? i hate it. whenever i`m alone, i always feel this thing inside my heart. like there`s a vein that`s ready to pop.

and he always gives me the feeling whenever i caught him looking at me that he still cares. and he`s also pretending. i tried to look for other guys. i have found one but i don`t know if i can love him because i`m still attached. and it`s not that easy to let go, believe me.

i just put a strong front whenever i`m with people just so that they will think that i`m really moving on. i`m doing it. i`m even using different guys just to make myself away from him. but every time that i`m alone, it all comes back to me. >.<

i hate that feeling! do i still love him?

i really HATE YOU.
but i still LOVE YOU.